2 Years Pain Free!

[rjdemarx]

Hi All, I haven't been here in a while, in fact I couldn't even remember the name of the forum. But that was not the case 3-4 years ago when I was here all the time. I wanted to briefly share my story in the event it can provide some perspective and hope for some of you. Back in 2017 while on a business trip to Eastern Europe, a stripper came back to my hotel. I remember being extremely reluctant about the whole ordeal, but man was she hot. Anyway, I was completely safe about the ordeal and in fact didn't even have intercourse. But a lot of body parts touched. The next day, all was fine. However, on the way home, I started to get an odd sensation in the tip of my penis which I can only refer to cold and wet with frequent urge to urinate. "Oh boy, what's going on here." I started to obsess about a potential STD that I would be taking home to my family. I even thought I saw some weird bumps on the underside of penis. I can remember my abdomen tightening up in the airplane seat and I frequently made trips to the bathroom to see if things had progressed. Finally, I made it home and I felt a sense of dread as I approached my house. Basically, I was freaking out. And, it was all in my head! The next day my doctor prescribed an antibiotic just in case. But my symptoms progressed, the cold wet, and now dribbling after urination became a real issue. Then a few weeks later aching pain and sometimes sharper pains throughout. What the hell was happening to me. I couldn't get a good night sleep because I was so stressed about it, and it seemed like all I ever did was think about "IT", constantly. I went to PT, used a Therawand, went to psychologists, sat on ice cushions, did yoga, went on walks, hell I even bought a hot-tub. I would wake-up and be fine, but then within an hour the pain and sensation would start again. This went on for at least two years. I started to suspect that although my symptoms were real, they were all in my head. I had so much anxiety built-up within me. So how did I start to conquer this? Well, I think passage of time had a big part, and also the realization that my body and mind just needed to calm down. I had to stop thinking about what happened and stop feeling guilty about what I had done. I had to start seeing the bright side of what was happening. I had actually learned an incredibly valuable lesson - that I never ever want to let my family down or do something that would cause them harm. I had created a self inflicted moral offense, and my subconscious was trying to tell me to shape-up! Throughout this I learned a lot about how the mind works, especially the subconscious mind. Ultimately, the interval between thinking about my issue and checking in with the sensations of my penis widened. I attribute meditation to helping me understand what my mind was doing. Also the book Healing Back Pain clued me into the inner working of mind-body. CBD oil was helpful but not weed. I got back to working out hard and not worrying about any consequences. Finally, I got really immersed in my work when the pandemic started as I need to focus on keeping my business running. All of this helped me forget about Me and my problems and helped me to move on. Now the pain is gone. I am back to "normal". It will always be a chapter in my life, but it no longer dominates my life. I know that everyone's condition is unique. But, I wish you all the best in your journey to beat this. Stay positive.

Admin comment: Well done. How powerful the Mind is!